Melissa Gilbert of "Little House on the Prairie" says that this episode is "the one I just can't bring myself to watch."

For nine seasons, Melissa Gilbert played Laura Ingalls on Little House on the Prairie. Gilbert recalled a heartbreaking episode that she finds too difficult to watch. Michael Landon (Charles Ingalls), the executive producer and co-star, frequently shared scenes with Gilbert. 

The Lord Is My Shepherd, from Season 1. 

In the two-part "The Lord Is My Shepherd" episode from the first season of Little House, Charles and Caroline Ingalls (Karen Grassle) welcome their first boy, their fourth child. Laura struggles with thoughts of bitterness and envy because she believes her close relationship with her Pa is threatened by the birth of her new baby brother. 

When the infant becomes unwell and passes away, Laura is overcome with remorse and turns to their priest, Reverend Alden, for advice (Dabbs Greer). When he advises her to get close to God, Laura heeds his words to the letter and flees to the mountains, where she meets Jonathan, a loving older man (Ernest Borgnine). 

Charles and Laura's strong friendship is highlighted in this stirring episode, which continues to be one of the most well-known plots in the entire series. 

Gilbert stated in My Prairie Cookbook, "This is one of the greatest, if not the strongest, episodes we ever performed. The writing by Michael Landon was flawless. The program is written from a child's perspective, despite the fact that it is filled with significant themes about forgiveness and faith. The fact that Laura heeds Reverend Alden's counsel that "the closer you are to God, the more likely He is to listen" actually demonstrates the potency of a straightforward message. 

A-list actors and Melissa Gilbert collaborated on the two-part episode 

The majority of Gilbert's scenes in the two-part movie were acted by Landon and Borgnine. The character of family friend Isaiah Edwards, played by Victor French, also played a significant role in the poignant tale. Gilbert expressed her gratitude for having the opportunity to work with such accomplished actors. 

The Little House alum said, "For me personally, this episode was an amazing thrill. It was a dream come true to work with Ernest Borgnine, Mike, and Victor on location in Sonora, California. 

Gilbert was grateful for the many happy memories of her strong relationship with Landon and identified one particular moment as a true representation of their relationship in real life. 

"The ultimate evidence of my friendship with Mike is the climactic moment where Pa and Laura are reunited on Jonathan's mountain," Gilbert wrote. "The tears were genuine and shared; our love is unmistakable. I just can't bring myself to watch this one. 

Michael Landon was commended by a former "Little House" cast member. 

After Little House came to an end in 1983, Gilbert and Landon kept in touch. Although Landon passed away from pancreatic cancer in 1991, Gilbert is still affected by him. 

Gilbert said of Landon, "There really hasn't been another individual like him in our profession." "In my life, I have never met anyone else like him. I adored him—I adored him as my Pa, as a friend, and as a mentor. I will, always, always.

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